Yes, on both counts. Even if she must be remote, there's no doubt that she's looking over us, hoping and working towards our success.
[he doesn't know how true that is, but he says it like it's fact. because who else would understand being kept far away, but still wishing for someone to succeed? trying to not overguide and ruin the fabric of the tapestry?]
It's because she believes in our success that we're here at all.
[ Objective. Granting power to others to allow them the chance at success. There is where Artoria falters, she thinks. In her time as king, in her time in Fuyuki and Chaldea, she acted. She was in the thick of things. It would be so difficult for her stand aside.
Quietly, she asks: ]
Merlin. As my advisor, as my magician, you acted with me on many occasions. And on others, you did not. You allowed me to make my choices, come what may.
[ She has no idea about the tower, of course. ]
How did you do it? How did you refrain from wanting to intervene?
[there is a pause on the line, and what she cannot see is him folding his hands, for once wishing he had the sight back for a moment, so he knew the right words to pluck from the air. like this, he feels clumsy. human. it's still not normal.
in his mind, he is watching her ship sailing away, and knowing somewhere deep in his heart that he will never see her again in life. not unless some matter of miracles took place. and even now, the happiness that the miracles offer is a fragile newborn thing, to be sheltered under his robes and protected from storms and a secret kept safe.]
If I intervened every time things got tricky, you never would have actually grown. You had to learn to do things for yourself, not rely on someone else's judgement.
[his tone is gentle, but the words are somewhat blunt.]
And I had faith in you to take the course of action that you considered and found to be best. I always have. That is how I kept myself where I was, away from contributing my own needless opinions or assistance.
[or, whispers his own mind, because the truth would pain her unbearably, and she would still persist.]
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[he doesn't know how true that is, but he says it like it's fact. because who else would understand being kept far away, but still wishing for someone to succeed? trying to not overguide and ruin the fabric of the tapestry?]
It's because she believes in our success that we're here at all.
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[ Objective. Granting power to others to allow them the chance at success. There is where Artoria falters, she thinks. In her time as king, in her time in Fuyuki and Chaldea, she acted. She was in the thick of things. It would be so difficult for her stand aside.
Quietly, she asks: ]
Merlin. As my advisor, as my magician, you acted with me on many occasions. And on others, you did not. You allowed me to make my choices, come what may.
[ She has no idea about the tower, of course. ]
How did you do it? How did you refrain from wanting to intervene?
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in his mind, he is watching her ship sailing away, and knowing somewhere deep in his heart that he will never see her again in life. not unless some matter of miracles took place. and even now, the happiness that the miracles offer is a fragile newborn thing, to be sheltered under his robes and protected from storms and a secret kept safe.]
If I intervened every time things got tricky, you never would have actually grown. You had to learn to do things for yourself, not rely on someone else's judgement.
[his tone is gentle, but the words are somewhat blunt.]
And I had faith in you to take the course of action that you considered and found to be best. I always have. That is how I kept myself where I was, away from contributing my own needless opinions or assistance.
[or, whispers his own mind, because the truth would pain her unbearably, and she would still persist.]
...Are you are asking about a time in particular?